Love Notes

You know when you're in elementary school, or middle school for that matter, you write little notes to your crush at the time? Or you wrote unending pages in your journal all about that special someone. Oh how love was so simplistic back then. It was either "check yes or no."



My first big crush was in first grade. His name was Austin. He lived two houses down and we played Prince and Princess every day after school. That was love to me. Then I moved away. Five years later, I met another boy, who we'll call "The Jerk." He caught my heart. I thought I was in love then, but I was wrong. My heart was shattered into tiny little shards. I couldn't stand the thought of him. He destroyed my happiness.



I eventually got over that, by the way. I moved on. It was as awkward as anything if I was ever around him. I ignored him as long as I could, but through the months, we ended up being able to have a civilized conversation with each other. I didn't claw his eyes out. We were at peace.



When I got over him, I found a new guy, who we'll call "The Weakling." I called him my boyfriend, but it was more like a fling. We were together less than a month. I was the dumper, as opposed to being the dumpee. It felt impowering to do that, but I know that I broke his heart like the other guy broke mine.



After we had broken up, I had several flings which left me battered and bruised on the inside. My self-esteem was in the lowest valley. I hated boys. They were of no use to me. I wanted nothing to do with them. But that changed within a matter of months. My eyes were opened to a new breed of men: The Gentleman.



I'd known this guy, The Gentleman, for about a year. The first time our eyes met each other, something clicked inside of me. I know, that sounds like such a cheesy romance novel line, but it's so true, something really did click! I admired him from afar. I thought multiple times that he didn't notice me or he liked someone else, but I finally got the guts to say something to him. He ended up returning the feelings.



We went on a date. A real date. Not just hanging out, but going somewhere and him paying for me. It was the greatest thing any guy had ever done for me. He opened my car door, too!



I went home that night, ecstatic that I'd found this guy that was a gentleman. He cared more about the woman than himself. That is SO hard to find these days. It took me forever to find him.



We've been together for 7 months now. They have been the best seven months of my life, just because of him. The kinds of feelings I have for him aren't "check yes or no", they're way more than that. (: MaggieMae909♥

On The Brightside

I'm obsessing over this song by NeverShoutNever at the moment. It's talking about how now matter what the world thinks of you, no matter how small your heart can make you feel, you're important. No matter what. There is always someone that makes you smile, laugh, shine, and be the best "you" there can be.



The song, called "On The Bright Side", is so upbeat. I listen to it about everyday, which puts me in the best mood possible. Puts me in a natural high...



It's sorta hard to explain the feelings it gives me. I think about things while I listen to the song. Puts me in this perspective that can only be seen if I'm listening to this song. I think about my relationships with people, my family, my job, music, etc., etc.



I wish everyone could see this perspective. It changes you.



I'm a natural optimist, so what this song was trying to get across, I already knew. I live it every single day of my life. I try and treat every person I know with kindness. I give them my smile. There are some people I have come to know that I find very difficult to get along with or to just trust in general. But if I were to cross paths with them in my life again, I'd try my darnedest to give them a genuine smile. Who wants to be given fake happiness? That's the biggest blow to the heart.



People who are fake, get nowhere in life. Being fake to someone is being fake to yourself. It's showing that you can't even deal with a 10 minuet conversation... It's disappointing to see that in the society we live in. I dislike it very much.



I used dislike, not hate. Hate is a HUGE word. I catch myself saying it and I stop and think. You don't need to hate things. Hate is something that comes from within, deep down. I hate no one right now and am very proud of myself. Who wants to hate and be hated in return? It brings you down more than it helps.



Look on the bright side of life. You'll find that it is so much better. Be an optimist. Surround yourself with nature. Live an amazing life. MaggieMae909♥