Love. I love you, my sister, brother, family, friends, and anyone who comes along in my life! You say those three words to me and I'm gonna be latched to you for the rest of your life no matter what happens!
I've realized that I say I love you. A lot. I say it to people I've known for just this school year or people I've known all my life. Some people don't really get how you could love someone you just met, but it's possible. I've learned to really open my heart. But that can turn bad if you don't realize what's going on around you.
I love my friends and family unconditionally. I have friends who I treat as siblings and then friends that I see on occasion. I love them all. And my family. They mean the world to me. I really couldn't live a day in my life without being around them. I always feel like I leave a piece of my heart with them when I'm gone for a few days.
I have said those three magic words to two guys in my life, each time ending not so happily ever after, but I'm thankful for them. They taught me three things about my self:
1). You shouldn't rush love. Take your time.
2). You don't need to be attached at the hip.
3). You need to stand for your beliefs.
Of course there are many more, but those three things stand out the most to me.
With each relationship I've been in, wether I was in love or not, I've left a tiny piece of my heart behind - unwillingly. I came out a better person, but of course, my heart was a little battered. My heart eventually went back to its original state, but then I would go through "love" again and my heart would come out weaker.
In my last breakup, I actually came out with a stronger heart and tougher skin. I'll listen to my heart more often in the relationship and see how it's feeling from time to time.
Music helps me heal everytime. It fills me up with beats and words that give me a new light in my world. Music is like ice cream for the soul.
I'm very happy at the moment. I have great friends, family, and a job! I'm thankful everyday for my ups and downs. I've learned from everything God has put in my life. (: MaggieMae909 ♥
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Forgive and Forget
You've probably heard this all your life "Oh, just forgive him/her and forget about it." As a child, it's sorta hard to understand it. What exactly is forgiveness? Why do we have to forgive? Why forget about it?
I have been thinking so much about forgiveness lately. I never really had to forgive anything major. If someone hurt me, like were rude to me or they made me trip, I'd usually say just forget about it. No worries, you know? Well as I got older, things became more serious. Those rude things turned into nasty cuts to my heart and stabs in the back. We weren't in kindergarten anymore. I wish we were.
The mean things people did to me put me down. I rebelled against my parents and God. Church was the answer at those moments, but I didn't think so. I thought the world was, but I was terribly wrong. I saw anything pure as the enemy. I didn't need it in my mind.
I was digging myself into a hole, one that was small and dark and secluded. How far can I get away from anything and anyone? Will they see how far I'm going? I saw these people I hung out with as friends, but they were the ones actually helping dig the hole I was in. I finally saw that they were not good for my soul and distanced myself from them. I spent a lot of time praying and reading the bible. This helped in the best way possible.
I finally climbed out my hole. I forgave every single person on my "list." Now came the hard part.
Forgetting something is hard to do in this life. Everything you do can be put up on the Internet or sent in a text and is forever set in ink. You can delete it, but it'll get around. Fast.
I thought just being away from certain people and not talking to them would make my wounds heal and my soul whole again. I was wrong, again. I had to start forgetting about everything that had gone on in the months we had spent together and everything we had done to each other. It will eventually come that I won't think about those days for months at a time. I'm still waiting for that.
Forgiveness comes from the heart and every thought of hatred towards that person must be surrendered. It's an every day struggle, but have faith. MaggieMae909 (:♥
I have been thinking so much about forgiveness lately. I never really had to forgive anything major. If someone hurt me, like were rude to me or they made me trip, I'd usually say just forget about it. No worries, you know? Well as I got older, things became more serious. Those rude things turned into nasty cuts to my heart and stabs in the back. We weren't in kindergarten anymore. I wish we were.
The mean things people did to me put me down. I rebelled against my parents and God. Church was the answer at those moments, but I didn't think so. I thought the world was, but I was terribly wrong. I saw anything pure as the enemy. I didn't need it in my mind.
I was digging myself into a hole, one that was small and dark and secluded. How far can I get away from anything and anyone? Will they see how far I'm going? I saw these people I hung out with as friends, but they were the ones actually helping dig the hole I was in. I finally saw that they were not good for my soul and distanced myself from them. I spent a lot of time praying and reading the bible. This helped in the best way possible.
I finally climbed out my hole. I forgave every single person on my "list." Now came the hard part.
Forgetting something is hard to do in this life. Everything you do can be put up on the Internet or sent in a text and is forever set in ink. You can delete it, but it'll get around. Fast.
I thought just being away from certain people and not talking to them would make my wounds heal and my soul whole again. I was wrong, again. I had to start forgetting about everything that had gone on in the months we had spent together and everything we had done to each other. It will eventually come that I won't think about those days for months at a time. I'm still waiting for that.
Forgiveness comes from the heart and every thought of hatred towards that person must be surrendered. It's an every day struggle, but have faith. MaggieMae909 (:♥
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