Art is a guarantee of sanity. -- Louise Bourgeois

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Roller coasters

The past year has been the most emotional roller coaster I could ever go on. Ups, downs, and loops. I went through all of those things. It was terrifying beyond any other feeling. But you wanna know something? Just like real roller coasters, I was brought back to level ground.

The roller coaster was shaky and I really didn't know how stable it was going to be.

The ups were new friends, new productions, my license. I was on a high for an indefinite time. Then the downs came. Heartbreak, questions, death. I wasn't ready for any of them. They hit me like bricks. I broke down in front of my mom or on my bed, asking how I could do this to myself.

Why was this happening?!

I went on with my life as if nothing was going on. All sun shines and rainbows on the outside, thunder and clouds on the inside. Then it hit me:

Life was actually still going on.

Life would still go on, no matter what. It wouldn't stand still forever. I needed to live my life. I was hurting myself without even trying.

Roller coasters, they're so inevitable. You won't know you're one until you find yourself at the top of a hill and you're falling down, hard. It'll get better, promise. (: MaggieMae909♥



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