Take Me Seriously

I am almost 19 and am not a child anymore. I am making grown-up decisions and am trying to figure things out on my own. I know that I am not going to make the smartest decisions out there and I'm probably going to be disappointed more than once in my life.

Ever since I made my decision to not go back to college and pursue traveling, I have felt judged for this decision. Like I have not fully thought through how difficult it is going to be. Let me tell you, I know how difficult it is going to be. This is not just a pack up and go thing. I will have to sit for a few days just to figure out all the expenses. Then where I'll go. Then how it will happen. It will take me YEARS to save up the funds to get to a starting point.

When I tell people that I will be traveling the world they think that's crazy, that it's a little kid's idea. Ouch. A little kid thinks that all they have to do is pack a backpack of some clothes (don't forget your toothbrush...) and think of some magical place that is far away. That's not me. I will be packing several backpacks plus more full of clothes, snacks, and boredom busters. I will be putting my passport in there and anticipate the adventure that awaits.

I don't know if others think that I don't think it's NOT going to be hard work. Oh boy... I'm probably going to want to give up some times. Days will be harder than others. I will be relying on God a lot through the journey to the Journey. I don't expect easy. I really don't. I want everyone to know that I know that I KNOW IT'S NOT GOING TO BE EASY. Nor do I expect it to be.

I think people might also think that when I say "travel the world," they think that's silly. Honestly, I think it's a bit silly myself. The words, not the actual action. The words do sound a bit kiddish, but it's the only thing that's easy to sum up what I'm going to do.

Also, I won't be going at this alone. I'll have my love with me. He will be helping. He wants this just as much as I do. This is his adventure just as much as it is mine. I am excited to have found someone to come along with me. We are both mentally preparing ourselves for the road ahead of saving.

I am also aware of how difficult it will be once I move out of my house and have to start paying for my own expenses. If I think wisely and have a strict plan in place and know the end point, I will not falter. My dear and I will be able to do what we have to do. If things come up, such a either of cars needs a repair or we aren't able to save much that month, we'll just keep on trucking. I am confident in this and am thankful that he will be there to help me when I need him.

I am ready for the responsibility that this plan will take. I am ready to work hard. I want to work hard for this, because it means it is something I want very badly and the rewards that will come with it will be priceless.

All I ask of the skeptics that have heard my plan is to not think so harshly. This is my dream and what I want to fulfill in my life. How I get there is my decision. I know it will not be easy in the least, nor do I want it to be. I want this to be a learning experience. My dear is ready for the adventure that leads to the adventure just like me. We are a team.